I cannot see the future. That’s what makes today
hard faith, not constructs, conjecture or speculation. This is faith
in the Present Personal God. And the unknown, unwritten, unlived days ahead,
a (not so) Simple Practice.
Today I have my need, absurdly. My inability to hope
beyond a millisecond, my fear, my lack
of faith in a present and personal God. For I cannot see
You, but bless me anyway Holy One.
Amidst my perplexities,
from my ambition,
out of blindness,
toward Belief. Today,
I cannot see; help me!
In the ordinary things of today, help
me to hold fast to You. To see with the “eyes of the soul.” Dazzle
me and scare away the shades of gray.
Do I trust you? No. Do I long to? Deeply, reverently. Can I set aside today ME into
Divine Safe Keeping. For you, for understanding more of you.
A Holy Habit of trusting in the hidden, blinding, dazzling Light;
Even as I cannot believe, make me bright and beautiful.