Sometime in May I admitted to myself and “the world” in a post that I hated being fat.
It’s now late June and I want you to know that I’ve been busy. More importantly, I faced something about myself that I don’t like, I can even admit that I hate about myself, my weight. I wrote about it, which was cathartic just in itself, and it was a kick in the pants for Tom and for me to do something!
There’s something about our culture that has your average person (I am including myself here) convinced that we can’t do anything about our appearance. And if you’re not already thin, or already beautiful, or already in shape, stay out of the fitness clubs.
I had myself so talked into a pathetic corner of apathy, that I thought I shouldn’t even be seen on the streets exercising because I was such a joke.
I had my head so full of excuses that I felt hopeless, and worthless, and hated the sight of myself.
I’m here to tell you that I started exercising! I read a book and stopped eating wheat. I no longer have acid reflux. I have lost (since March) thirteen pounds. More importantly I decided that I want to be around when my grandchildren get here. (No, this is not an announcement.)
I get out there and walk or walk/jog with my Couch Potato to 5K phone app cheering me along. I do it five or six times a week, and have now going into my third week. More than anything I decided that it was possible to change.
Do you believe you can change things about yourself? There comes a point in “middle age” when we must either give in and give up OR do something. I don’t think very many people believe they can change. The stories of successful exercise or weigh loss or even giving up something like alchohol are too dramatic, too flashy, too much turn-your-life-upside-down unbelievable.
But this is a story mid stream — to tell you that if you want to you can change anything!
In March of this year I was the heaviest I have ever been — I was 179 pounds fat. I felt horrible. In May I decided perhaps I could do something about it. I’m 166 pounds now and I won’t tell you my goal because I don’t want to jinx myself. I am changing habits. Changing lifestyle. Changing the way I look at myself. I am changing my future — likely extending my life, certainly I have more energy and optimism and hope for the future. There is a power that comes from doing.
But I just want you to know that if you decide to, you can do anything. What I have learned (at least about myself) is that it is a lot like being an alcoholic, in this way…
All I need to think about is today.
All I know that I can change is today.
Will I choose to go and walk/jog in 90 degree heat today, because this is what I decided to do? Yes, I will. Yes I did.
What will you choose? What will you decide to change today?