I went to bed a few hours ago and woke with this ringing in my ears:
“There is no just war.”
I’ve no idea where it is coming from; it seems totally out of the blue. Sometimes things come to us from what we were reading or talking about before we fell asleep.
I was reading Henry Nouwen’s book Lifesigns. It has nothing about war, but rather is an invitation to Intimacy, Fecundity (which sounds rather like a dirty word to me, but isn’t …) which is openness to a life of change and growth, and Ecstasy, the fullness of joy!
And before that I cleared my email. I did a little research on “poverty in the US and the world” for my essay written for my church’s blog Advent Conspiracy. Before that, I was reading about different women’s roles in the development of the early male philosophers. (Don’t ask me why. I’m sick. I can read whatever I want.)
I’ve been sick for three days and my bed has been my constant companion; sleep, as well, at times but more often then not I am left with the warm covers and my cold thoughts. The “I should be doings” ringing in my ears. It’s good that this doesn’t happen to me too often (getting sick, I mean) because I don’t do sick very well and I have a propensity for getting Pneumonia. Thankfully this doesn’t feel like Pneumonia just a simple flu.
Anyway, “war” is ringing in my head right now and I don’t know why, but when this happens I can’t help but go to my bookshelves and see what I have. If I find nothing I go to the web but I was looking for a little book I knew I’ve had for years, but haven’t had the courage to read. It is titled: WAR: Four Christian Views.* I guess I know what I’ll be doing for the next few hours.
Why does it take courage to read about war? Well, as a Christ-follower I have to face that the Church doesn’t exactly have the best record on war. Neither does the Bible. And, I just hate hearing what some people (Bush/Cheney) say to justify certain wars. How they justify the Iraq war is beyond me.
But now that my spirit has been nudged. I am going to read this book once and for all and then see what I am thinking. I’ll let you know.