Writing about sobriety puts a pit in my stomach
I am sober
but many days this doesn’t by implication mean happy. Getting dry
isn’t a formula for bliss. It is only a pathway toward
When I was a drunk I didn’t feel sensation – there was mostly
I didn’t feel the ache deep inside me, I was smothering it with gin, or wine, or
These days, I feel all my pain. My skin hurts of it sometimes.
It’s discomforting to be miserable, but important
that I can feel and know I’m alive.
The most important thing I can say today
is that I’m no expert in sobriety.
I am a Vessel
(the capitalization is important, because I AM ALIVE)
containing my story.
Life is only lived one day at a time. I cannot forget the past but I can forgive.
For those that don’t read me regularly, there are other things I’ve written about my sobriety here and all over my blog. The heading above are quite helpful, I hope. Or just search for a topic.
Grace & Peace friends,