Unlikely AM thoughts. I’m home with two sick kids, one whining, one enduring, and I am so frustrated with the whiner!!!! She’s refusing to take her antibiotics. Can kids do that? She’s so eleven. So I may have to end this suddenly!
About yesterdays entry: Thanks for all your emails. Wow. A rush of support and friendship which I am so grateful to receive. At times I feel kind of stupid for being so vulnerable and then I remind myself this is me. Though I don’t want this, it doesn’t mean I’m incompetent or undesirable or unlovable or unhirable (technically not a word, but you know what I mean) or unwhatever.
It’s just me, complicated, kind of a mess some days, but really okay so many others. And I’ve come to understand that perhaps my words can help; I know it helps me, but maybe it will also help someone else.
With two kids home sick at this point, I am marooned and thereby forced to get a few things done like take down the Christmas tree (no, it’s not down yet!) and balance the family budget (not done since before the holidays – yikes – and was keeping me awake last night) and sort out what to eat for dinner. Planning ahead helps with the “moods” and actually plowing us out from a big snowy dumping this AM helped a lot too. That fresh air and exercise was brilliant!
Today I am thinking and will get back to you later.