An Ode To Joy: When Chasing Significance, Ministry, Motherhood, & Alcohol Isn’t Enough

My daughter thinks she Knows My Dreams, she pushed hard recently trying to get me to admit them. Telling me “Go to seminary and be a pastor that writes, mom. That’s what you want. Just do it.” It’s so easy for her to say, I think to myself, with my incessant dissatisfaction and oh so many fears. […]

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[I Asked God for More] than Motherhood

I woke up on Sunday full of lament. The depression that had been crushing me was now a throttling choke. I woke up straining. Strangled and gasping for air, for truth, for relief; I woke up. I woke up on Sunday already giving up. Begging for it, the answer to the question depression always asks: […]

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Silent for Days, becomes Years

Silent for Days, becomes years when the Girl Child now Woman is afraid of her own words, allowing her many fears to overwhelm. sometimes offering Powerful Utterances that shape, guide, portend, sometimes paralyzed. Deep calls to Deep, inside the Place Where She is Full, saying lay down, let go. Silent for Days, becomes years when the Girl Child […]

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