Not to Speak is to Speak: Volume 3

“If we could read the secret history of our enemies, we should find in each man’s life sorrow and suffering enough to disarm all hostility.”   — Henry Wadsworth Longfellow I am finding it hard to love my enemies. Rush Limbaugh who obviously hates women and calls them sluts and makes them feel like whores….

Were I to forgive you, Daddy … [A tale of domestic abuse, Part 2]

I just posted a piece on domestic abuse.  This is a tiny bit of my personal story that I wrote several years ago. The stupid neither forgive nor forget; the naive forgive and forget; the wise forgive, but do not forget.  — Thomas  S. Szasz First published in March 2010.  This was not easy to…

Someday Pain

“In certain ways writing is a form of prayer.”  — Denise Levertov     frequent looks backward, are killing me.  a betrayal of today. i want to know why but yesterday hurts. aches like a cold, itches like a wound healing. i can’t help but think get over yourself. and pray, the whispered mantra i warble at…

What is Lent Anyway, Besides Strange?

Lent is strange for those that don’t follow the tradition.  Or if followed at all it may mean giving up a vice for 40 days, an addiction to technology or caffeine or sugar, but not really knowing why. That was true for me for many years.  If you grew up in an evangelical church like…

God is With Us. But Can We Find Him?

I have marvelled at my doubt.   I am going through one of my phases where I feel extremely disappointed by organized religion.  Like Michael Jinkins, in Called to Be Human, I don’t understand what spiritual means any more than I understand what it means to be religious — but I know that today they are a pale imitation of what they should be,…

it’s 4:59 am, and you disintegrated slowly [A Poem]

Daddy, I miss you. I really do!  I try not to, because I think I am still mad at you. I’ve got a nice fat file at the UW Department of Psychiatry to prove it. I glanced at the back of the room and saw you sitting there.  With your grin, how I lived to…

Waiting? I don’t think so.

Waiting.   We hardly know what to do with waiting in our culture. Waiting on things makes me frustrated and sometimes even angry.  I want doctors to be on time, fast food lines to be, well, fast, children to be efficient, packages in the mail to be on schedule — all of it irks me.  I…

There’s no cute title for writing about Clinical Depression.

And isolation breeds isolation which creates the stigma and discrimination we need to eliminate. The brain is an organ — just like the heart, liver and kidneys — and we need to encourage everyone to treat it as such from both a medical and social perspective. Joe Pantoliano, Founder of “No Kidding, Me Too.” If…

Just thinking … about agape.

I’ve thought a lot recently about the last decade. How quickly it evaporated.  If you mark your life by major transitions a big one was in 2001 when I quit full-time work at InterVarsity.  In the years since I have grown up — as in separated from my parents emotionally and allowed myself to grow…

be the gatherer of our dreams (a celtic prayer)

From the Celtic Daily Prayerbook. I cannot speak, unless you loose my tongue; I can only stammer, and speak with uncertainty; but if you touch my mouth, my Lord, then I will sing the story of your wonders! Teach me to hear that story, through each person, to cradle a sense of wonder in their…

You Change My Dreams (a poem)

All of my life, and even in my dreams I find myself searching. Dream after dream – night after night – year after year I find I am often longing.  Longing for love. Today, as I heard myself once again asking why, I see that you can fill that life long yearning. You are the…

Forgive like you have been forgiven – 70×7

Image by M e l o d y via Flickr “It is not easy to forgive,…but bitterness is corrosive. Like a container filled with salt, it will destroy everything because the Lord cannot forgive us if we cannot forgive others. Life is wonderful if we let God heal us.” I am thinking and mulling about…